Think of the person you were at age 15. Were you naive? Impetuous? Aggressive? Docile?
Do we even know what kind of person we are at that age?
Whenever I hear the name Sandy Shaw, I think about that strange age between adolescence and adulthood, between being a kid without a care and a grown-up saddled with life's responsibilities. Shaw forfeited the endless possibilities of youth back in 1986 when she participated in a crime that became known as the "show and tell" murder case. She was 15.
All those years ago, Shaw and fellow teenagers William Merritt and Troy Kell lured 21-year-old James Cotton Kelly into the desert, robbed him of $1,400, and shot him to death.
Shaw swore she didn't know the gun existed until shortly before the shooting. When Kell pulled the trigger, she ran screaming, thinking Kell had shot her. Merritt and Kell later confirmed her version of events.
Two days after the murder, Shaw took two friends to the crime scene. One of those schoolmates then took others to view the corpse. After six days, police found the body.
Witnesses told police Shaw talked about participating in the shooting, but she denied it. Following Shaw's conviction and sentence to life in prison without the possibility of parole, Merritt swore that Shaw had been the "bait" for a planned robbery of Kelly, but wasn't a shooter. Kell, who wound up on death row in Utah after he killed a fellow inmate, signed an affidavit saying Shaw hadn't participated in the homicide.
Shaw's sentence was commuted in 2004, making her eligible for immediate parole. Parole, however, has so far been denied. She has been behind bars 21 years.
Sandy Shaw, now 36, was back before the Nevada Parole Board this past week. A Kelly family representative was present to remind the board that James Cotton Kelly never got a chance to live his life.
Shaw's family members gathered at a teleconference site inside the Southern Nevada Women's Correctional Center and listened as she once again told her story and expressed her regret.
Outside the prison, Shaw's mother, Connie Shaw, took a moment to weigh yet another parole hearing for the daughter she lost more than two decades ago.
"It went better than what they've gone in the past," the mother said without enthusiasm.
Experience has taught her not to get her hopes up.
"My daughter was a good girl," she said. "She got caught up in a nightmare. When she got convicted, I thought she'd get out in five years. Other people, they're out in eight. They're out in 10. They're out in 12. She kept right on serving her sentence."
Merritt, for instance, served 12 years before gaining his release. He has since returned to prison for other crimes.
Sandy Shaw was a Rancho High freshman, a good student and Pop Warner cheerleader, at the time she was arrested. In prison, she has earned a high school diploma and three community college associate degrees and has built a list of other accomplishments.
"She has a ton of certificates," Connie Shaw said as the prison officials ushered us off the property. "She's got a positive attitude. She's done everything they've asked her to do. She's done everything that is possible to do. She can do a lot more good on the outside than on the inside.
"She knows what she has to do when she gets out. And she's on the right road."
As the mother continued to plead her daughter's case for freedom, she read from memory a list of her daughter's strengths and an even longer list of flaws and questionable issues about a killing now more than two decades old. It was clear Connie Shaw's life was put on hold back then, too.
I asked her about each family's loss.
"It's been a nightmare for all of us," she said. "Sandy knows the pain that family has suffered. She's so regretful of that. As much pain as we've gone through, I can't imagine what they've gone through."
That's always the bottom line. Although she didn't shoot James Cotton Kelly, she can't bring him back.
Is justice served by keeping Sandy Shaw in prison after 21 years?
I think it's time she got the chance to go home.
John L. Smith's column appears Sunday, Tuesday, Wednesday and Friday. E-mail him at Smith@reviewjournal.com or call 383-0295.